I wasn't going to post this but I didn't sleep well last night and need to get it all out. I'm tired. Tired of carrying two households on my shoulders. Tired of paying bills I shouldn't have to pay because someone won't call the other parent for help. Tired of the excuses of why someone hasn't found a job. Tired of trying to prod someone into getting a book finished by sending pictures for another person to do illustrations for said book. I am worn out emotionally and don't know how much longer I can deal with it. I want to disappear and have nothing to do with anyone. I want to stop worrying. I just want it all to STOP.
I know I'll get over it. I always do....somehow. But right now I've been down so long it looks like up to me.
Y'all have a day.
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...Thoughts and Prayers Momlady...the only easy days are yesterdays...
I can certainly feel for ya. I wish I knew just what to say, but unfortunately I don't!
If you need some body to sound off to, just give me a call! If you don't have my number, sent me an email and I'll give it to you!
You just have to be strong and hope for the best!
Yesterday, I kept hearing "Let it go.."
Maybe it wasn't talking to me.
It's OK...I know...really, I do. And I love you. And if you need some peace, then go get some. I'll come water the plants. But you have to wait until after Thanksgiving because I have a twelve pound turkey and you have to take leftovers home for sandwiches or I'll be stuck with 'em. AND I bought extra turnips...
Shade and Sweetwater,
You are not alone. The last few nights, issues like that and then some kept going around in my head. All the what if's, should of's and how come's...well I could scream. But what made me so mad at myself where I could not get to sleep is: I KNOW that it is WHAT it WAS and HOW it IS...and JUST move on. I allow myself to become my worst enemy, that is my main problem. Finally I get to sleep and I awake to a new day and realize just how blessed I am.
Thanks, Ken. I'll get over it.
Jim, I appreciate the offer. If I ever need to sound off I'll email you for your phone number.
K....I'll be fine and I'm looking forward to the turkey.
Diane...I know I am blessed. It's just that everyday life and its problems get in the way sometimes.
Thank you all....blessed be.
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